In Communion with Calliope #4: Ghost

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In Communion with Calliope is a weekly poetry column by Ivana Devcic.

My mouth floods with bitter tears,
and in this noose I surge and thrash
as though I were drowning in the sea;
I sit in the deafening darkness,
and wonder how this curse befell me.

A hollow gaze meets me in the mirror,
and I stagger, dazed with disgust –
I tell myself how ardently I loathe you,
but I know that it is not enough.

Why does the ghost of you pursue me everywhere? 
Why must you haunt me in this waking sleep?
Surrendering, I cry desperately:
If you will not depart, 
then confess to me!